Maledictus Superbia

To those still intent on getting into my head and thoughts,

Pride.Harmless in moderation,but what comes of those who harbor too much of it?Arrogance?Solipsism?Don't we all know that one person who's smug,all-talk and condescending towards people who are of lower intelligence?We can't judge or think lowly of them just because they sin differently from us.Each person has their story.

Growing up,some of us never got to bask in the light of glory.Some of us are just mere doormats,being outdone by other people,far more superior to us.But sometimes just because someone does worse compared to you,it doesn't mean they're...Inferior.What if they're shrewd?You'll never know unless you get to know them truly.They'll just remain silent while the ones with big-talk continue preening themselves.

You see,when you begin losing patience for these kinds of people,you begin developing this...Countermeasure.A way to stand up for yourself while putting across the message that you yourself are superior to the others.Hence,the term "Solipsism".Put simply,it's selfishness shown openly to everyone.Take this situation for example: A boy growing up getting criticised for not exhibiting an intelligent aura.He keeps getting called 'stupid' and even his own family members look down on him.Without any parents to guide him,he's on his own.And then he decides to abuse that intellect to begin putting people down.What he felt when he was younger,he exerts on other people.Even to the point where he begins condemning his family members for possessing such an inferior mind,compared to his.

And then one day,that streak of belittling people stops dead in its tracks,and by what?The fact that it chases people away.This 'Countermeasure' the boy thought he had?It began to haunt him.He was losing his friends.He could not seek help from people,for the very same reason why people were avoiding him.This pride of his,he thought it was only to chase away people who looked down on him.He didn't know it was about to ruin his life by chasing everyone away.He's alone now.

That boy...Is none other than myself.I am...In love with my own pride.I grew up with it,and now it's grown into me.Thing is,I'm surprised some people still want to stay,given how...Ill-mannered I can get sometimes when my pride decides to rear its ugly head.Each time someone says something illogical,I just slip into this state where...I lose control of my words.I begin this 'condescending' talk and start talking down to them.It's arrogant,I know.But...I guess if I want to blame it on the people who made it this way,it'd be selfish,right?So I've begun to embrace my biggest flaw.And now it's more of an obsession rather than a flaw.

So to those of you who know me...You now know my biggest flaw.Your impression of me may change...But I won't have remorse.I decided that I do not want to hide this downside of mine,and instead show it.To the people who accept me,I give you my thanks.To those who don't...Well,feel free to leave.There isn't gonna be a red carpet for you out of my life,but you're free to go.

Sometimes dark thoughts are...A blessing.You begin to see life from another perspective.And then you begin to change your approach to life.In the end,the outcome of such changes fall to you and your own actions.How will you live your life,fool?

-D.A~